Work is slow. That's an understatement.
I am blessed. That's an understatement.
My emotions have been all over the place. Bottom line, I am happy. But I just do not feel the overwhelming joy and excitement that I had hoped for once I moved. Its still early and new, and I know I just need to be patient. But something is missing. Is it friends? Is it religion? Is it love? No clue, but I am doing my best to keep my head up and pointed towards the sun.
I mean, I have a beautiful drive to and from work everyday that inspires me every time I drive it. I feel very blessed and fortunate to be here, living and working. I suppose transitioning into such a scheduled lifestyle is just hard for someone such as myself...
While sitting outside at 2am this morning, I met my neighbor. And Ive been wondering who lived below and to the right of me because that person has all University of Alabama porch furniture. And I just figured we could be the best of friends. Little did I know this person was also the person who drives the BLUE mustang, decked out in Tinkerbell accessories. Who knew Helen was such an eccentric lady?
Pretty much, she's all over the place. She's old and was still up and at it at 2am. I have a feeling I was staring my former self in the face.
I say all of this because Helen taught me an amazing lesson last night. During our conversation, she explained that she in fact lives on Lake Martin but has the apartment for the year to see if she likes it. It's something she and her husband always wanted to do. But he never lived to see it. She all but made me cry, especially when she started crying herself. She just said that she wished they would've gotten the place sooner, but they kept putting it off and putting it off...and now she jumps at all her opportunities with both feet, for we never know how much time we have...
And that made me realize why I am here. Because its something Ive always said I wanted to do. My heart has always led me to the coast and I knew I couldnt rest until I did it. I shouldnt question things too heavily and I should have more faith in myself. And if there's an opportunity, regardless of risk or cost, I should take it. And I will do my best to remember this...it very much goes along with "follow your heart", but hearing Helen's story just made it more real to me.
So there's your story for Saturday...take it and live it.
J.Elaine
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